Tarot Tarot Tarot Tarot: The joys of a witchy queer!

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As a fiery red head for about 6 months LOTS has changed in my life.  In one sense I’ve calmed down. In an other I’m 3 times more radical and out there.  I’m living more and more my true self.  Backing myself.   Saying NO when I mean it and not backing down, and saying YES with confidence when I believe whole heartedly in or about something… It’s incredibly exciting.

These photo are from the FECK Melbourne art competition exhibition Gallery opening.  They are glorious and I love the celebration of the Sacred Yoni and feminine intimacy.  Love it.  That whole night was a completely crazy experience.  Black light body paint = nakedness.  That is a story for another time

Today my #WILDUNKNOWNTAROT cards arrive.  The Wild Unknown Tarot from “The Little Red Tarot” Queer tarot community site are soooooo gorgeous.  I’ve take a picture of a bunch of my absolute favourites.  They’re dark but bright and colourful and I feel so excited to use them soon.  I’m going to a large class/ workshop on Tarot this weekend, I can’t wait to be a sponge and absorb and learn all I can using these.  Above you can see my notebook where I write down all my readings.  Most all the ones I do myself for myself.  It’s interesting and I’m slowly memorising all the meanings and the depth to the cards, each book I read adds another layer to the interpretations – sometimes remembering all the information just seems so overwhelming.. BUT reading with a book still leaves it open for the feeling and energy to come through and room for the interpretations of the moment.

Wonderful Witchy Wednesday

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Wild Witchy Wonderful Wednesday.

I was going to do another “Things I love Thursday” as I haven’t done one in I think at least over a year.  But here I am, on a Wednesday writing again.   Today I feel rested, invigorated, lighter, happy, excited and ON.

I think tonight will be my Spring Clean night.  The intensity of the Moon has died down, the Eclipse has happened and my body is starting to recover.  I’m successfully fighting off a flu with Androgrphis, Echnacia and Olive leave – which has surprised me.  My major injury of last week; a dislocated elbow has calmed down.  It’s not broken which is a HUGE relief and I have physio today!

I’ll do a Tarot Card reading tonight as this is a real change – I feel seriously on the cusp of something magical and very exciting.   I have no idea what, but I think writing this down, sharing it is putting the magic out there and I’ll look back on this post and have that glorious moment of realisation.

I had a very real moment of intuitive magical foresight or deja vu last week.  To the point of thinking I think this IS going to happen, I can feel it.  Literally not more than 10-20 minutes later BAM.  Bicycle accident.  Dislocated elbow, sore hands and skinned knees.  I was travelling slower than I would have been otherwise and SO many people jumped out to help me, it was a moment that really restored my faith in Humanity.

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Burning Man 2015: Self love and sensory overload

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You must love yourself first and foremost. It wasn’t until Amani and I had done much inner healing work on ourselves that we had the adhikara to attract this kind of partnership. You get what you put into the world, especially in relationships where the other person is always your clearest reflection. If you fill yourself with love, love will be reflected. One person could never be everything you need, and it’s selfish and unreasonable to place that burden on someone. Instead, be whole unto yourself.

Fill yourself with radiance, love, fullness, dreams, aspirations, joy, beauty, and magic and you will find that your partner is simply pouring magic and wonder out of their pores for you as well. Then you exponentially better each other. Become vessels, and like two mirrors held to one another whose mere proximity turns them into an infinity mirror, you will grow infinite depth between you.

A person’s heart is a precious and highly sensitive gift — don’t grip it! Hold it gently and reverently in your open palm, let it soak in the fresh air and sunshine. It’s been caged in your partner’s ribs for so long. Now that it’s with you, give it the freedom to fly. To love someone unconditionally is to desire their happiness without rules and conditions as to how they may seek it, or to require that they appease your own selfish comfort zone and personal triggers. To trust someone completely is to honour and value their integrity, to know they will make good decisions for themselves and the partnership. When you are free, every day you spend together is a conscious choice you make — a privilege rather than an obligation.

Quotes directly from here:  Burning Man and Wife

I’m currently learning a brand new way around my heart on a new level. I’ve been doing allot of reading, self analysis and love. Talking to a psychotherapist and really learning to love myself and understand my purpose and sense of personal value to myself.

It’s a glorious experience. I’m glad I have the intelligence and self awareness. It’s exciting and empowering to fell strong and grounded. With that foundation I can entertain the idea of sharing my life and affections without losing my own self, and be strong, relaxed and confident doing so. Although without acknowledging my vulnerability and nerves – it’s an exciting prospect, possibility. Adventure…I’m looking forward to going back to Burning Man 2015 to revisit my awareness of myself.

Looking back to last year: So there I was, walking through the desert, tears streaming down my face, wondering why the hell I had spent so much time and energy to get here. For what, I wondered? For this sensation of being completely overwhelmed and this moment of loneliness? Realising that I needed to love myself, like really open up and experience life, be open to experiences.

I realised that this feeling of overwhelming angst and complete sensory overload, that the fact that my system literally couldn’t handle one more thing (in retrospect) is exactly what I had come for — the time and space to get real with what I was feeling about the my life at large, to actually take the time to feel the stress in my body due to overwork, non-stop noise and complete lack of opportunity for a break or real mental rest, go-go-go, me-me-ME world we are living in.

Time to reconnect with the real inner me; not the appearance, the perception or any of the responsibilities of day to day life.

2015 has been such a year of heart warming growth, friendship, excitement and love. I look forward to the curve ball and discovery that will happen this year. That week where the Default world stops and gives me a moment to experience sensory over load and GET what I’m actually feeling. Dig up my subconscious feelings and become at peace with all the change, the emotion this year has already thrown at me – and the rest I anticipate experiencing between now and then.

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Witchy Queer: The day I made a friend cry and realise this is more powerful than me!

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I like to be a little magical, a Witchy Queer… and I don’t care if this all sounds a little like fairy tales and bull-shit.  To me it’s a special gift and a sense of self awareness that not everyone is blessed with.

I’ve always known, and had the oddest people tell me they can feel my energy or that I’ve clairvoyant talents.  However to me it’s more than that.  It all stems from a belief system.  I’d like to share with you mine and how I’ve rationalised it to satisfy my sense of needing balance of mysticism and reality.

Fate or Destiny?
I believe that you can control your future, you can change or influence your life path.  Otherwise look at me, I was born to be a housewife, in a good christian family, have 3.5 kids a husband and a picket fence.  Or at least that’s the dream for me my parents had and they, bless their hearts did every thing they could to give me the best start on that path. Obviously this post is a sign that didn’t happen..

So if I believe that you are the owner of your life, your future then how does that tie in with clairvoyant things, magical life and tarot?  To me this they are all a thought prompt, a indicator to be mindful around a certain thing, situation or thought.  More often than not it’s the kick in the nuts that your sub-conscious needs.  Going on the thought process that not everyone is as in tune with their intuition this is very useful.   Sometimes with a touch of magic…

After a beautiful day out in the gorgeous Melbourne sun, after another gorgeous festival day my friend and I went for a lovely dinner then off to Luna Park for one quick round on the funniest Ghost Train I’ve ever been on in my life.  Hilarious!

The ghost train ride got us talking about Tarot cards.. and having had a set myself now for a couple of years, and getting more in tune, and better at reading, spreads and helping my friends with the meanings of their cards, I suggest I’d be happy to do a reading for her.    Back at my house, candles burning, the most delicious Godess incense burning we were ready to go.

I love creating an atmosphere conducive to relaxing and getting in tune with your self, getting your head straight and loosing all distractions…  My room is perfect, candles, a light breeze from the open door onto my deck.  Outside the solar rainbow mini lights are all lit up, the scents from the candles is sweet and there are so many the room actually warms up the cool night air just a touch.  I have a couple of incense sticks alight and the mood is perfect.  I set up my cards in front of a gorgeous painting of my three eye’d all seeing pink watermellon godess.  She’s beautiful.  I organise the crystals, I really don’t have enough I realised at the time, all pointing to the middle to channel energy.  
I’ve always been pretty on point when doing readings for people but this time was so much more, I really didn’t expect to feel overwhelmed and the energy was so intense.  I’ve never had someone cry.  It was both beautiful, scary and intense all at once.  You realise with these things you’re not just talking flippantly about things, it’s so much more and deeper.  Life, like big decisions, love, hearts… this is the real slide of magic.  In this case Tarot cards that couldn’t have been any more perfect for what she had going on..  Trippy.  
I think readings need aftercare, just the same way intense and emotional sexual experiences do.   That safety, grounding, bringing back into reality after an experience.   Hugs, a card covered in wax and glitter that has the cards that we pulled all written out.  A drink or for the smokers a ciggie… all things to calm the heart and allow the brain to absorb the thoughts..   Like sex it’s another expression of vulnerability in this case definatley both sides – that so many people are afraid of.    I was in awe, and then super exhausted.
And so, in conclusion, MAGIC.  Also, this shit is powerful.
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